Strange dream

I had this dream about a week and a half ago. It's the kind where you think, "where the hell did this come from??" Here's what I remember of it...

Emmett and I were in the Southern part of the U.S on vacation. I think Nashville but I'm not certain. We were travelling by train and ended up in a small town. I remember walking through this town and not seeing a lot of people. Next thing I know we met up with and we're talking to Johnny Cash. Yes, the Man in Black himself. I can't remember what he said to us, I only remember his presence in my dream. Then we were on the train again for what seemed only a minute or two. We were still in the same town when we reached the next stop. We were walking up to this house. When we entered the house I remember thinking how rustic it looked and that there was very little furniture around. Suddenly a man came into the room. It was John Entwistle. Yes, Thunder Fingers. He was incredibly friendly and I felt so overwhelmed at meeting him. He hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. He shook Emmett's hand. He looked down at Emmett's black high top Converse shoes and said, "this that what you're wearing? That won't do, I'm going to get one of my boots for you to wear and keep!" He left the room and came back in no time. John brought with him a pair of beige coloured suede boots with a very pointy toe. Emmett tried them on but they were too big. John looked disappointed and I was equally as disappointed that we couldn't say we owned a pair of John Entwistle's boots. Then I woke up from this dream. Drat.

If someone knows how to analyze a dream let me know your thoughts on this because this dream has come from out of the blue. It's not like we've been listening to any Johnny Cash or John Entwistle material in the home lately. I'm still scratching my head over this one.

Dreams

It's truly amazing to me when you think an unobtainable goal is now within reach. You struggle with your inner self for years and years. At some points you reach a breaking point and then you're pulled back into safety. Something tells you to hang on and you do because you've learned to trust your instincts. You go through life's lessons, obstacles and tests. You tell yourself it is just a way to see how much you want something and what you are willing to do to get it (without harming anyone along the way). You meet people who help in your journey, you meet people who test you, you see people leave but it's never a bad thing. Again it's life's lessons.

Could it be I am finally going to see a dream come true? Am I truly this close to it? After everything in my life I have/am going through are things finally coming to full circle? Amazing.

Good Vibrations

The title of my post is the "fault" (LOL) of a fellow blogger who mentioned the Beach Boys and that song stuck in my head. I was thinking that a lot of people are going through a lot of things right now and are in need of some good, positive vibes. My father in law has to have day surgery at 1pm today and there's others out there who are not well or are going through life changes that need happy thoughts. I found out last week that a woman in another department has been diagnosed with uterine cancer (stage 1). At Emmett's work, the manager's wife has lymphoidic (sp?) cancer and another co-worker's daycare provider has breast cancer. I heard that it used to be every 1 in 4 people will be diagnosed with cancer now the statistics show it is every 1 in 3 people. Scary thoughts. In my circle (including Emmett's workplace) I know of 7 people who had or have just been diagnosed with cancer. We were discussing this at work and we wondered why the statistics have gone up. I'm sure it's all the factors we came up with; STRESS, environment, additives/genetically altered food, and how we do not look after ourselves properly. You just do not know what one day can bring so enjoy life and what it brings you each day.

On a happier note, we had a great Valentine's Day. Kazuo came home with a bag full of chocolate, Valentine's and toys from daycare. What I want to know is...is it wrong to raid your son's goodies?? I think I ate about 1/4 of his chocolate. LOL. In my defense, yesterday was the first time my soon to be 22 month old has had chocolate so I was merely "helping" him eat it. Is that a good excuse? I did buy Valentine's Day heart shaped cookies for us all so he had one of those while he was going through our gift to him which was a Thomas the Tank Engine book. I think he was more interested in the book than the cookie! LOL and no I did not eat his cookie. He finished it in his own time. I have to agree with you Elizabeth, Valentine's Day is overblown. What it comes down to is the love you have for those close to you. Do you really need a day to tell them that when you can do that every day with a simple "love, me" after an email or "xo" or "I love you". All I really need is a kiss and hug from my son and life is pretty darn good.

Anyway folks, I have a day ahead of me and more to do before heading into work this afternoon. Healing, positive vibes to anyone who needs them and keep the faith folks. Life will get better.

Tired

*sigh* When I write that I would like to move forward in my life that is what I do. This becomes difficult when my feet are constantly being dragged back. I've said good bye and wish nothing but the best so let go and let's carry on with the life that is happening around us. There are more important things in this life. I write this with no upset, anger or with no nose up in the air. I AM TIRED. When I write that I have nothing further to say I would really like to keep my word.

I've received messages but I have not read them, in fact I have deleted them because I am moving forward/I've moved forward. I've said all that I have to say on the subject in the post I am referring to and that is that. In that post I said I would not comment further on the subject because I wanted to move on and I meant it. That is the reason why I deleted the messages without reading them. I have no more to say on the subject.

Again, all the best in life. Enjoy and be happy on your path.

Repentance

Thank you to my friend Mr D for posting this on his blog. I hope you don't mind me posting it here, it seems perfect.

The Prayer of Repentance
Dictated by Meher Baba

We repent, O God most merciful; for all our sins;
For every thought that was false or unjust or unclean;
For every word spoken that ought not to have been spoken;
For every deed done that ought not to have been done;

We repent for every deed and word and thought inspired by selfishness,
And for every deed and word and thought inspired by hatred.

We repent most specially for every lustful thought and every lustful action;
For every lie; for all hypocrisy;
For every promise given but not fulfilled;
And for all slander and backbiting.

Most specially also, we repent for action that has brought ruin to others;
For every word and deed that has given others pain;
And foe every wish that pain should befall others.

In your unbounded mercy
We ask You to forgive us, O God! for all these sins committed by us,
And to forgive us for our constant failures to think and speak and act
According to Your will.

Ain't takin' the bait

I've just had a wonderful laugh and thank you to the blogger who provided it. I won't elaborate because it's too complicated to get into but it's one of those things where you shake your head so much you have to laugh.

Anyway to carry on...what have I been doing lately? Preparing for a Super Bowl party? Nah, although I will be cheering on the Steelers. I have a wonderful friend who started as a pen pal in Pittsburgh and naturally I have to support her home team. I've known Mary for 27 years, amazing isn't it? We've been to eachother's weddings and she even trekked it up to Hamilton for Kazuo's baby shower. Other than that I met my gorgeous 20 week pregnant friend - Carol for a much belated duo birthday dinner last Tuesday. We went to Cafe Limoncello here in town. YUM! Wonderful pasta, salad and bruschetta. Mmmm. I didn't order dessert even though it was very tempting. I decided on eating every bit of the Linguine Pesto with Chicken so I didn't have room for dessert. Next time. Carol and I are meeting up again this Monday for a free 2 hour beginner's scrapbooking workshop. We've been attempting to get this scrapbooking project (i.e. baby books) going for a year now. Time, lack of brilliant ideas and money seems to always get in the way. We're both hoping this class will give us some great ideas and inspiration to get off our arses and get a move on this project before baby 2 comes for Carol and before our current kids are heading into year 3 of their lives which is fast approaching. Ah for the love of procrastination, what can I say. LOL.

My little Mod - Kazuo has been progressing quickly in his life. He is a walking or rather running ball of energy! He is also talking up a storm and is starting to put 2 to 3 words together in a sentence. It is amazing to watch this little being's progression. It seems to come out of the blue and I have to admit when this happens I'm just floored and speechless. He has a wonderful sense of humour and just loves to laugh. He doesn't even mind being laughed at, in fact he seems to understand he has just done something humourous. He loves to be read to and as for music well....that goes without saying. He of course has his moments but what child at 21 months doesn't. Patience is a good assest to have right now and even though I've never had experience raising a child until he came along it's as though my own natural instinct takes over. That's another part of life I'm amazed about. Humans can adapt so quickly to something that has been with us since we were born it just awakens at the right time. He's been a blessing and has given me strength when I needed it the most. I would do anything for my special little boy. When life throws people at you who haven't got any clue as to what life really is all about all is forgotten when you turn and see a sweet innocent face. All is well again and nothing else matters.

As for the rest of February I have five birthdays to celebrate all nicely scattered evenly through the month, thank goodness. So bring on the birthday dinners and cake! Good thing I joined Curves back in October, what a life saver!

Have a Happy Super Bowl weekend folks!