To ponder

I've spent the past few days thinking about life. I've thought about how my path has crossed with different people. Some of those people who are reading this blog I have actually met. Some I have yet to have that pleasure but hope to do so in the future. There are some of you who have made so much possible for me and who have touched my life. In some aspects of my life things happened by chance, by luck, or by being at the right place at the right time. They have created some very memorable moments for which I am truly grateful for. If these memorable moments never happen again I won't be bitter but instead thankful they happened the first time.

Not all has been happy moments. There have been times of struggle within myself mostly. There have been times of reaching out to the point of looking pathetic, looking desperate, looking like a dog that has been begging for hours at the table. I've learned though. Stop trying so hard, just allow life to happen and trust in the next step I take on my path. And along the way create good karma because the bad will come back and bite you in the ass.

Often times I feel as though I'm sitting on the sidelines just waiting for an opportunity to have my turn. Dangerous thing to do because one can lose sight of one's goals. I've decided these past few days to just trust in the universe. Things happen for a reason and also not happen for a reason.

Good thoughts, good karma, doing good things for people and not expect anything in return and for all you Who people you all know this means to "pass it on".

Sorry this blog is a bit scattered tonight, my thoughts seem to be everywhere these past few days. But have no fear I am well, just placing myself back on the path again. With that said I think it's time to continue walking....care to join me?

Recent post

Something just dawned on me the other day. This is regarding my Fri. Oct 28th blog post (i.e. vent post). I have a feeling some of you think I was directing it to you. First off the post/vent had nothing to do with anyone with a blog and second it's someone I've known for 7 1/2 years. So...if you do not fit in any of these categories then guess what? It's NOT about you. I wouldn't be so stupid. Yeesh.

Halloween 2005

I did my usual routine of checking in on my son after he has been asleep for over an hour. I make sure he's not twisted himself in an weird position and yes is still breathing and then I quietly exit the bedroom for the night. But tonight I stopped and watched him sleep for a while. He had his sheep blanket next to him and looked quite content. As I watched him I found myself in awe at this little being. It amazed me he started out as a single cell in his long journey into this world. I thought to myself, "did he really come out of my body?" What a little miracle. I feel truly blessed to have this little mentor in my life. I learn new things from him every day. Life's stresses and problems are meaningless when I look at him. In my eyes, he is what happiness is all about.

Below is a picture of him in his Halloween outfit. He had a great time trick or treating with his friend, Hannah. Hannah's mom and I have known eachother since we were 6 years old and we always went trick or treating together every single year as kids. We're hoping they will continue the tradition and are lucky enough to become good friends like Carol and I.