The cry of a little one

My dad had a colonscopy yesterday so after work I walked over to the hospital and met up with him and my brother. I arrived early (as usual) so I stood around Short Stay waiting for them. The room was filled with parents and infants/toddlers/pre schoolers. The children were wearing hospital gowns. I don't know about you but it just breaks my heart whenever I see a little one wearing a hospital gown knowing he/she is going in for day surgery. There was one little boy there who was being cuddled by a nurse. She was taking him into the play area perhaps to take his mind off the whole hospital experience. As they were entering the room I heard him say in a voice that sounded like he was going to cry, "I don't want to go in there! I don't want to go in there!" over and over again. He sounded just like Kazuo. My throat felt tight and tears started to well up in my eyes. I couldn't take it any more I left the area and walked down the hall to the main doors. I can't imagine what the parent of this little boy must have been going through. They say you begin worrying about your child the moment you know a little being is growing within your body and this continues even when they are adults. I never really understood this until I became pregnant. When I was childless I didn't even pay attention to children around me unless they were screaming their heads off. Now the opposite has happened. I can't explain it other than perhaps I now understand the mind of a child and the frustration and fears that swim in their heads. To think we all came from that.

And my dad is just fine. No popys or a biopsy. *whew* Did I mention the other worry - aging parents. The circle of life indeed.

This and that

Time flies, life moves along quickly. It's been over a month since I last blogged. So I thought I'd catch up tonight.

In the middle of last month my supervisor retired after 33 years. I can't imagine...but I've been here almost 18 years and I didn't think I would be here 5! So never say never. She didn't want to be fussed over but we couldn't have that. She was an incredible boss. You could call her hot and cold. Some days you didn't know if you'd get even a hello but I think she had a lot on her mind. Work was very important to her. I think in the last few years she discovered work wasn't everything and that a personal life was more important. She fought hard for our department, she was extremely knowledgeable in the data base we use here and if you had a personal problem...holy crap she was here for you. It was then you saw the side of her she rarely showed the group as a whole. She was amazing one on one. She'd drop anything to help you out. She was respected and admired here. So we wanted to do something different and special for her. Someone came up with the brilliant idea of a boat/dinner cruise. Genius, super genius. As it turned out she had been before but LOVED it and was more than willing to go again. We went on the Hamilton Harbour Cruise. It almost was cancelled because out of 150 seats they only sold 22. We complained that 2 days notice wasn't enough to try to reserve a table for 12 people on a Friday night. We also told them it was for a retirement party. They said they would get back to us and we found out it was a go. It was nice to have a whole ship almost to ourselves. It was a fun and relaxing evening. There is something calming about the water for me. It always makes me reflect on my life. I stand there and stare off into the water and think. Maybe it's the sound of the water underneath the boat, maybe it's the floating sensation or that I'm that much closer to nature. Whatever it is between spending a fun evening with a fun group and the water I had a wonderful time.

The rest of the weeks up to now seem like a blur because they went by so fast but they were spent going out to dinner with friends and getting my apartment sorted. We donated and gave away a lot of Kazuo's old clothes and toys. It's incredible how much you can collect in 2 years. We've been going to the Pier a lot with him just for a change in scenery. My daycare provider had her 2nd second baby 2 weeks early so we had to scramble to find people to look after Kazuo the first week of her 3 week maternity leave. Yes, you read correctly she's only taking 3 weeks. I managed to work half days some days and either my parents or Emmett's parents filled in the rest of the time. Emmett moved his vacation up a week early so he's been off with him the last 2 weeks. My best friend also helped an afternoon and it gave her a chance to spend alone time with him. After he gave her a huge smile once he saw her the first words out of his mouth were, "where did mum go?" LOL, that's my boy.

I'm been trying to save up my money for the North American Who tour. Hopefully I can make it to at least 2 Who gigs this Fall. Now...if only the boys would announce their tour dates for here. I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to a live performance again.

Other than that not much else is new. I've been working out at least 4 times a week, watching what I've been putting into this gob and looking forward to my 3 weeks vacation which is coming up soon. I don't have plans other than doing a lot of walking, meeting up with friends and tending to my tomato plants. Life is good, I have no complaints (for a change, LOL) and I'm thankful for life itself.