Redirection

I've changed my mind about the direction of my blog. It was going to be very personal and a look into who I really am. I didn't think anyone would be even interested in what I had to say nor did I even think anyone would be reading my blog especially of all people Pete Townshend. This blog was going to be a way of releasing the sleeping giant within me who used to write quite a bit many years ago. I rarely allow many people to see the "real me". Some think they have seen or know the real me but in fact that is not the case. The people who know the real me have known me for over 20 years. It can take me that long to establish that kind of trust in a person. When you get screwed once in your life by people you tend to be cautious in the future. I will continue to write here and talk about whatever tickles my fancy but it won't be as deep as I originally wanted it to be.

I really appreciate the people who have taken the time to read my blog especially those who do not know me at all. I love meeting/interacting with new people especially Who fans. Please don't allow this post to send you away I'm just changing direction.

Big Brother

I'm not sure if anyone will be in here reading my blog but I will just expand and explain my comment's on Pete's blog. It is in reference to a new way of checking out books at the public library. It is an example of how technology and computers have changed us all into simply numbers rather than humans with souls. It also reflects on that Big Brother 1984 theme.

A friend of mine works for the public library in the city where I live. It's been ages since I last sat and had a properly chat with him. Ron is a walking ball of energy and sarcasm and I love him that way. He works in the library's technical/computer department. So the information I received is from the "horse's mouth". He told me that the library is looking into self checkout. I looked at him with this, "so what is new with that? These days if a library doesn't have self checkout they are looked upon as being behind the times". Catching my expression he leaned in towards me and finished his comment, "All the patron needs to do is walk through the gate and his books are checked out to him. As long as he has his card on his possession the gate will scan and checkout the book. The library can even go as far as checking into where in the shopping mall this person travels to". I have to admit I was quite taken aback by all this. I started to think about how far technology has gone and in the scheme of things we are all merely numbers and codes. When we sit behind our computers we are numbers - IP addresses all of us. Does this mean if we sit in front of our computers long enough we will begin to think of ourselves as such? I'm beginning to wonder. I'm now thinking I'm spending way too much time behind this box. I'm wondering if it's the reason why I'm feeling out of sorts. I'm going with the flow with the rest of the computerized world. I'm getting engulfed and obsessed with reading my email, reading up on my favourite webpages, checking up and maintaining my Who Fan forum, and keeping up with my blogs. I actually had to make time to listen to music the other day. It was never like that before.

However on the other side of it all I've met people via the internet who I've then met in person who have become close friends. I've connected up with people who have had a powerful, positive influence on my life so far. To these people I'm not a number (I'm beginning to feel like an episode of The Prisoner now). I guess what scares me is this image I have of people going through this library checkout gate. Faceless, non emotional and almost robotic like walking through the gate. Perhaps it's my imagination running away from me. Well...we shall see how all this turns out in 5 years time when this new way of self checkout comes to fruition.

"All in all we're just another brick in the wall". ~Pink Floyd

Music is like oxygen

I've been feeling unsettled the past few weeks. I'm feeling as though my mind is in a million different places and each place can't get it together to return back home. Maybe it's because I've been so busy with home and work. I really haven't had time to concentrate on me. When you have a 17 month old son, a home to maintain and a mate to love, you tend to push "you" aside. Perhaps I'm feeling the effects of that now. It's tiring emotionally so what does one do to temporarily fix this? Music. I spent the afternoon of my day off work listening to music. I haven't done that in ages. I guess going to see Paul Weller in Toronto the Thursday night turned the light bulb on for me. Here I was standing in the 3rd row quietly admiring this gorgeous man who was filled with incredible energy just giving so much to the audience. I was surrounded by a sea of sweaty rockers and Mods and wonderful, delicious energy. Beautiful, just what I needed. I sweated, danced, sang amongst the others and drank in all that wonderful music. I don't think I felt this good in a while. I didn't have a single drink, not that I normally do. I think with gigs that are in these huge dance clubs people just assume you drink when you're there. I wasn't interested, all I wanted was the music and to be taken elsewhere.

Thank you Paul Weller.

The beginning...

So here we are...a brand new blog. I already have one at Livejournal and hesitated to begin another one. However I found myself signing up and I've decided this will be a very personal blog. Lots of thoughts deep within coming through onto...not paper but computer. Thank you Pete Townshend for introducing your fans to this space. I think you've awaken a side of my soul that has been yearning to come out from hibernation. You've once again hit a "note" from within and that is a very good thing.